this is beautiful

I love this painting. its gorgeous. the artist is Kambiz Sharipfour

booted poems

Hey guys longtime no see. Ive been soo busy with random stuff and i needed this. Im high on blue dream so here goes nothing:

Glow

One word:glow
What does it take to make somebody glow?
a present?
a kiss?
seeing the love of your life, of whom you miss?

the word glow
is an understatement
when someone glows
it is radiance, passion, and the bliss of child-like ignorance
all rolled up into one emotion

eyes like Christmas lights
you forget lonely days and pointless fights
to make someone glow is the best gift you can give
and giving is the reason we all live.

let it bee

i hate not knowing the future. i wanna know where in going to college. will my parents be proud. who am i going to date. am i going to date. am i trying too hard or not hard enough. siwiwi[owqcnwkn. what ever. fuck it and let the good times roll

its been too long

so im pretty sure i only write on this thing when im upset..glad to continue the trend.

cant put what i wanna say into words, just: scmkla;mck'ldsmf
dsv
vds
;v,d
fuck.

cHilLin iN tHe Aaaaa

atlanta was so fucking fun. i forgot how much i love my cousins. its amazing how teens from opposite sideds of the social spectrum can relate so easy. i love those girls so much. i only get to see them once a year( if that) so thats what makes our relationship so special. we cherish every moment like its our last..and that how i wanna live my life

livin life

feeling free. thats how its supposed to be.

oh lets do it.

nothing too exciting. im just learning how to use illustrator and i was listening to this song so here ya goo

uNtitLeD

had to get this off my chest. this doesnt make sense unless you know who im talking about and few people do.

uNtitLeD

how does a single Person make you change so much
without even knowing
i become more diverse
and less ignorant with every word she says

how can a white girl make a black guy more diverse?
ask Her.
im now exposed to things id never give a chance otherwise
i love it.

i am so torn
not fair
fuck.
can i for once like Someone who likes me back?
thinking about Her makes me cringe
because Shes untouchable.

i'm always cringing.

i text Her and savour every response
like their Her last words
because i am thankful she bothers to waste her breath on me

i'd do anything for one chance.

blah blah blahhh

so i cant listen to and more stupid teachers aka scar face.
i need vacation. my mind is about to burst...

formsprizzing

i made one. and no offence taken erin haha. but i like it for the most part because it helps you see what people really think of you. some people just dont say what they mean and you just dont know where you lie with them. i think if you say what you mean and mean what you say, then you have the essance of a true leader. Common said it best "We live in a world where it's more okay to follow than to lead. In this world being a leader is trouble for the system we are all accustomed to."

scare-D-cat

this picture is so cool to me. it shows fear and im scared a lot. scared of the future mostly. i want school to be over but not my friendships. Hopefully the two dont go hand in hand..

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How do you know when a friendship is turning into something more?

weekend

i saw right through everyone this past weekend. at a glance i could see their insecurities, doubts, judgements, and pretty much what they were thinking. It was obviously because i was torched but still. thats what i wanted to write a book about; the barriors that each person was trying to overcome. I really wanna name-drop but i can't cause its rude. so next time i'm in that state i will actually consider writing a book.

p.s. props to dave who had crazy ill-matic rymes and who painted the most vivid image in my head with his words.

nerveousness...i hate it. it cripples me. i gotta over come this and say exactly how i feel. why not start tonight?

blah

black to the same old shit

my inauguration

the weekend was okay. i got stood up but it was easily made up for after our outrageous dinner after the game. alone we are mature 16 and 17 year olds, but together we are one big 10 year old. spit balls, tortilla penises(sour cream included of course) and the brutal destruction of chips all over the table. also ben lindholm stuck his fingers in my butt. They claimed this was some kind of induction to synergy... false. Oh and how can i forget kids hitting on a taken girl who is clearly out of all of our leagues. Good times

happy belated new years?

happy new decade/new year/ clean slate
except minus the clean slate part. this is because few people actually have the chance to have clean slate just because it's a new year.
i had a legitimate chance to have a clean slate and used it of course.
2004
i move from Riverton Utah to Marlborough MA.
now prior to moveing to mass i was the shyest person ever. i refused to open up to anyone and I'd say the least amount of words to get my point across in every situation.
so when my dad told me we were moving, i was ecstatic, which was contrary to his expectations.
i moved to mass and life was better having more friends, and everyone liked me. this was because i did what a lot of people do today, said what people wanted to hear. I would only say what would get me more liked, not express my true opinion.

i still do this today to some extent. and my new years resolution is to say what i mean and mean what i say. no bull shit.
simple yet elegant dont ya think?