mr.herror...meet twitter

soo im real booted. lets get that out of the way..but it should be expected ;)
i used to absolutely hate on ppl who used twitter. but its actually the shit cause now i have my own little pal to whom i can say the random shit that goes though to. (that wasnt a coherant sentance but i dont care cause this is for me :p). even when i dont burn, random shit goes through my head and i love having an instant outlet for that.
peace @adia2496 :)

ps. the music i listen to dictates my mood and outlook on life, its sweeeeet :)

gray zone

im living in a gray zone
a life of unknown
fearful of what the future may hold
because lately im disater prone
if i were sitting in a sauna id still be cold

everyday i fear falling into the sheer blackness
the abis of depression
my heart is a cactus

i want to expect the worst, so im not suprised
but i find that i feed myself lies
thoughts of opening it up and being so blithe
makes me want to break down and cry

i'm in the gray zone, and soon we will see
if God all mighty has listened to me

waiting.

waiting sucks im always scared. anything could happen. each day could determine the course of the rest of my life. toooo much stress.
i have a few stress relievers though <3333
one of which is regina fucking specktor
word.

If we die in each others' arms, still get laid in the afterlife

Kanye is too good, his new album is damn near perfect.
speaking of damn near perfect...what up senior year!?
i think because ive been a nice kid all throughout high school
i'm getting rewarded now.
i got killer grades,acceptances are rollin' in, and i am in love.
lifes great.

i just realized ive been burnin' a whole lot...
and i love it.
im open to more ideas, im more creative,
and most importantly i think in a different way. I am more analytical.
i scan, read, and process every situation im in.
like a PC.
its like everything in life is blurry until i put smoke in the air
and then it feels like i just put on my glasses.
i feel like i can read peoples true intentions and see through their facade
that they put up.
its so obvious to me when im high
but otherwise im oblivious.
thats why im so quiet.
because i think to myself and process my new information.

this is why i rarely look at myself in the mirror
when im high.
its scary to find out that your kind-of-a-dick.
or have questionable-motives.
and God forbid having potential-but-too-lazy-to-do-anything-worthwhile.
ive felt all of those before and i get real scared because
its all true. (or has been true at one time or another)
but its refreshing to know that i have the courage
to be fully 100% honest with myself
sometimes.
a lot of people lie to themselves all their lives
which is sad.
i try to be honest with myself as much as possible
but its hard.
so i smoke to make it easier.

ive had many Epiphanies while high
its mind blowing.
you should try having your mind blown.
its nice

this is beautiful

I love this painting. its gorgeous. the artist is Kambiz Sharipfour

booted poems

Hey guys longtime no see. Ive been soo busy with random stuff and i needed this. Im high on blue dream so here goes nothing:

Glow

One word:glow
What does it take to make somebody glow?
a present?
a kiss?
seeing the love of your life, of whom you miss?

the word glow
is an understatement
when someone glows
it is radiance, passion, and the bliss of child-like ignorance
all rolled up into one emotion

eyes like Christmas lights
you forget lonely days and pointless fights
to make someone glow is the best gift you can give
and giving is the reason we all live.

let it bee

i hate not knowing the future. i wanna know where in going to college. will my parents be proud. who am i going to date. am i going to date. am i trying too hard or not hard enough. siwiwi[owqcnwkn. what ever. fuck it and let the good times roll